The question of ‘Who am I? post pandemic: Identity and teacher wellbeing in International Education

If you’ve been kind enough to look at any of my previous blogs you’ll notice a common theme… many of my blog ideas start with asking my wife lots of open-ended questions about life to which she kindly engages with me (at least most of the time). One such conversation that we’ve had recently is to do with identity and the big question of, ‘Who am I?’ Sometimes the form of these conversations is often more to do with trying to understand what parts of my identity are important to me, and the tension I experience in wanting to be good at my job, but not wanting it to be how I identify myself. This has undoubtedly been influenced by the ‘stormy seas’ I experienced in the early stages of my career, and during which I had to anchor down in order to figure out what I really wanted to do with my life (at least for this stage in my life). This train of thought led me to trying to understand the role of ‘identity’ in teacher wellbeing more generally, it’s constant shifting, and the hits that it may take once schools return, and that we may have to grapple with. There is much similarity in exploring teacher identity and wellbeing within a nationalised context, and much of this can be related to teachers that are working within the country that they call home, but as I hope to explain further during the blog post, the focus will be on understanding the identity and teacher wellbeing within the international school context.

As a starting point I want to offer a definition of identity to help make this article feel a little more tangible. One such definition refers to identity as “the way we make sense of ourselves to ourselves and the image of ourselves that we present to others.” (Day and Kington, 2008, p. 9). Identity is culturally embedded, and inexplicably bound up with the interrelationship between the personal and the professional. Additionally, much of the educational literature recognises that the wider social context that teachers live and work in, the personal and professional factors of teachers lives, as well as their underlying core values and beliefs, all contribute to a greater or lesser extent on our identity (Day and Kington, 2008).

An article that I found really interesting while thinking more on this topic was a paper by Day and Kington entitled ‘Identity, well‐being and effectiveness: the emotional contexts of teaching’. The authors bring attention to the significant changes to educational policy that has taken place within the UK, which has sought to raise standards of teaching, learning, achievement and school governance and which has hugely influenced the contexts in which teachers work. Day and Kington highlight that it is important to note that these structural changes to education not only affect how teachers work but also how teachers feel about their work. In this sense, teachers ‘professional’ identity is emotional as well as cognitive, not just about what we think but how we feel, and is inclusive of how we feel about ourselves and how we feel about our students (James-Wilson, 2001, as cited in Day and Kington, 2008). Based on their research, Day and Kington posited that identity was therefore a composite of three interacting factors; (1) professional identity (which can be reflective of what a good teacher is in relation to current social and policy expectations, (2) situated or socially located identity within a specified school, department or classroom (the context of the school in which you work in, as well as leadership, support and feedback), and (3) personal identity (linked to family and social roles in personal life) and is illustrated in the diagram below.

As international school educators, the situated or socially located aspect of our identity presents different tensions and challenges, and an interesting article that touches on this indirectly is ‘Teacher (In)Discretion in International Schools’ (Poole, 2019). Poole argues that international schools and their educators can be perceived as having more autonomy as they are not so overtly subject to the ‘tyranny of performativity’ in terms of Ofsted inspections, school league tables, and examination results (perhaps debatable) and in this sense they experience a “relatively autonomous status outside of national education systems” (Poole, 2019, p. 1). Instead, Poole contends that international schools are much more impacted and shaped by the ‘sociocultural idiosyncrasies of the local context’, such as the pressure to facilitate and enhance global mobility for students (and their families).

Fast forward to the present day and the world is tentatively beginning to emerge from a global pandemic; essentially a globally-experienced trauma that has involved uncertainty, loss, grief and fear in a wide variety of ways, as experienced and interpreted by each individual in the context in which they live and work. Many international schools and staff have had to make concessions, which include the withdrawal of job offers, recruitment freezes, pay cuts or freezes, reductions in staff, as well as the making up of lost teaching time through reduced holidays and longer teaching terms. What I hope that this article may contribute to is a broader understanding of wellbeing for teachers working at international schools. As we return to school, it is not just the compassion fatigue we may experience (perhaps even more quickly than usual) but the notion that even within the context of school, our professional and situated identity may be destabilised. This doesn’t necessarily need to be a bad thing, but school leadership may need to be aware of this, and help grant a space of understanding whilst these aspects of our identity are reconfigured.

One thought on “The question of ‘Who am I? post pandemic: Identity and teacher wellbeing in International Education

  1. Hi Sadie. Great blog. You have made me think, and given that identity is at the forefront of public discourse at this time I think it’s important that we all find time to do so. I can’t speak to how one’s personal identity is understood or experienced in through the role of a teacher or educator, and certainly not how it is experienced through such a role as lived out within a relocated cultural setting. What I can say is that I do think the question of ‘who am I?’ is a tantalising one, and not always one that easily answered. There is the personal/professional you allude to: who I am to me, and who I am to others (definitely not one and the same thing!). I guess it depends on who those ‘others are’; work mates, or just work colleagues, managers (perhaps whose expectations we try to conform to?), or maybe even organisational leaders who we may want to notice our professional ‘contribution’ to organisational success. That having been said I think there is maybe a layer below the personal, namely the intimate self. Who ‘I’ am to ‘me’ when there is no pressure to perform or conform. This I think is the foundation stone upon which ‘we’ are built. Now, If I remember back to being a student, what comes to mind is a time of insecurity and anxiety as I sought to find my pathway into the world. All of the conflicting pressures that needed to be negotiated. The conflicting pressures to assert yourself are manifold: parental expectation, and self-affirmation through political, social, gender and sexuality affiliation. All of these when one wrestles with that sense that one is attached to an ‘out’ group when the ‘in group’ is where safety and acceptance lies. But we all need to be true to ourselves, and find comfort in our own skin. To be our true selves. I think what I would have benefited from would have been someone who thought deeply about the implications of identity, and someone who made it OK to talk about all those things that are on a student’s mind as they seek to become the best possible ‘me’ they can be. Someone like you. Keep up the great work.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: